Out of Control: How My Addiction Almost Killed Me

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The lawyer concluded that it would not be possible for the prosecution to overcome this defence and that therefore there was no reasonable prospect of a conviction. I belittled the experience, concocting a story that there was a mix-up over one of my mother’s credit cards. I suppose, at 16 years of age I placed my first bet and I'd say within two years, I was a chronic compulsive gambler and it took off from there. Now, a club is a big community and there would have been people in the club that had their doubts about wanting me back.

The publishers have described it as a "sports story unlike any other, a tale of success, lies, deceit, theft, recovery, rehabilitation and ultimately, redemption". With nothing to do but waste time, the temptation to lay a few bets must be incredible for those consumed by sports culture. The father said he was “extremely disappointed” with this but is currently reviewing other options open to him and his family. This lad totally empties his soul, holding nothing back in an honest account of his life and football experiences.

McCarron said he tried to get an injunction to stop a Sunday newspaper reporting on the matter, but the publication went ahead. My boss at the time, Adrian O’Neill, a good Dromore football man, tried to talk some sense into me one day. Although the writing had a hopscotch kind of quality to it I still enjoyed the book for none other than the fact that it took guts just to put this down on paper. The words McCarron might be better off seeking solace come from another Northern Ireland players' recent autobiography, Paul McVeigh's 'The Stupid Footballer Is Dead'. He said he would "give anything to see her now" and hopes some day he will be able to rekindle their relationship.

It was a few hours of editing and stopping and I said 'I can't do this anymore' but it was, 'look, you don't get paid unless you do this. While his personal life may have been crumbling he emerged as the key man-marking defender for his county, including rendering Bernard Brogan scoreless from play in the National League final. With the teams due to meet in the league and the championship, maybe Derry were already thinking: ‘McCarron can be targeted now.I wanted to show people I am just a normal person who had a good upbringing and my parents raised me well, with manners, the right way to be brought up. I completely respect the lesbian and gay community, because I really appreciated their messages of support when so many others wanted to bury me. Cathal McCarron is a Tyrone footballer, talented enough to be nominated for an All-Star twice in the last three years. An account of the life of an amateur footballer whose life spiralled out of control due to a severe gambling addiction which lead him into making a very explicit hardcore gay porn movie despite being heterosexual.

Out of the corner of my eye, I spotted the Derry manager Damian Barton coming across, plumes of smoke billowing from his ears. In terms of that time, he says he "couldn't see what was right and what was wrong because I was so ill. Cathal McCarron: 'I want to get across how destructive addiction actually is and what it has done to my life. I know what I can do and I’d be confident enough of looking after myself if someone squared up to me.Do you know what topped it off even worse, there were other guys in there doing the exact same thing I was doing when I was finished and they were straight as well - they were looking for the money.

At seventeen, you can get trapped in the fog of alcohol exploration, but gambling always dictated the journey I was undertaking. Niall Morgan charged from his goal in frustration at McKinless’ actions and started pulling him up off the ground. I'm not a GAA fan and know nothing about this sport but Cathals story is well written and he deserves respect for laying himself bare with all the bad stuff. We have been in plenty of scrapes over the years and you never saw Harte stuck in the middle of any of them. McCarron (28) was questioned by gardaí about the incident but in July the Director of Public Prosecutions (DPP) decided not to press charges after finding that he had made an “honest mistake” about the girl's age.He explained that she had spoken about college and he told her about his job during “harmless online chat”. McCarron has been nominated for an All Star 3 times due to his performances with Tyrone, and helped his team to the 2013 All-Ireland Senior Football Championship semi-final, which they lost to Mayo. The saddest thing of all is that she could walk past me in the street and I wouldn't recognise her," he said.